Missin You  / Valerie Saez (Friend)

I was just remembering all the crazy times we had together....like when we skipped school and went hiking.....or all the times we would go"cruzin"....you were always good for a fun time!  Remember furnishing my apt on st joe.....LOL....we had some crazy times.  I will never forget the last christmas we got to spend together....I am so happy I got to sit with you that night and help put Kyles gifts together, and just remise over old times.....you were always one of the first people I  would call with any news, or when I was depressed and needed to talk....we have been through everything together....you helped me through my seperation, and our reunion.....always there to give advise when I needed it, or just an ear to listen.   God I really miss you and never stop thinking about you.   I have your picture in my house for everyone to see my sister, and I look at it everyday, and ask "why?"  I guess thats only for GOD to know..........I cant wait to see you again!  I love you girl!!!!!!!!!!!

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Confused!?!?!??!! / Samantha Dowlin (Friend)
Hey  Heather.. sorry i havent been on the site for awhile... Savannah sure does keep me busy... When i would watch kyle for ya i thought he was a hyper active child but it wasnt just him its all kids.. mine drives me crazy... and to think i have ANOTHER one on the way.. what was i thinking? lol ... Girl i dont know what is up with this "justice" system.. i KNOW u and ur family deserve some justice but i guess in this damn world now adays, money talks, which is bull sh!t bc money cant bring u back but money got d-head walkin.. what is up with that shit.. I was drivin home the other night, the same night i found out that hes out, and i started crying bc i dont understand it... He dont believe he did anything wrong but i got news for his sorry ass.. HE DID!!!  So why would any kind of authority let him walk?  Or Shoot let him breathe for that matter? I will never know.. I have talked to ur mom recently and i'm glad bc seeing her or hearing her stay strong for kyle makes me stay a lil stronger... if that makes any sense... I wish i could take away all the pain though and bring ya back... Damn this shit sux.. i just had my baby shower and it was supposed to be a happy day BUT my last baby shower was givin by u and everyone that was at the last one was askin about different things u did and it upset me bc u werent here.. :( .. u were there when savannah was born and i am gonna be havin another one but this time its gonna be without u..:( i know u'll be there in spirit though.. u were always there for me b4 and anyone else that needed something... U were there.... well gurl.. there is so much i want to say but im all confused and i feel that im not makin any sense so i'm gonna end this for now and i'll come back to write more later... just keep us all strong.. and speed the "system" up a lil  ...  love ya and miss ya ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!
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What's wrong with them!  / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
I really would like to know why someone can drink and drive and
kill another human being and not be punished for this!!!!  Heather
you do not belong where you are.   The person responsible for this
should pay for this crime.  When we Heather's family have some
peace!!!  Not when the court systems turn loose a criminal.  I guess
it's okay to drink and drive without a driver's license and kill someone!!!!!!  Well someone's family doesn't think he did anything
wrong.  What's wrong with these people!!!  The justice system is for
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Dream / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
Last night I had trouble sleeping and when I finally got to sleep I had a dream about Heather. I was up the street from my house and I looked down and saw Heather standing by our front porch. She was waving for me to come to her. I ran down the steet to her. I asked her where she was and she told me she wasn't dead. We went into the house and and Heather grabbed my mother and gave her a great big hug. Heather gave me a hug too. She was dressed in shorts and her hair was pulled back in a ponytail. I told Heather I was going to call her mother and tell her she was here, and then I woke up. I woke up at 1:30 a.m. and I couldn't get this dream out of my head. I just wanted to share it with everyone. Close

Sorry to hear about Heather  / Shelly Porter (visitor)
I am so sorry about heather just hold on abd be strong.You can look at the website I made: http://sandyrinehart.memory-of.com and leave comments thanks ttyl bye Close

justice / SELMA FLYNN
I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOUR FAMILY THAT YOU HAVE JUSTICE MY SON WAS KILLED ANS WE CANT NOT GET JUSTICE SELMA FLYNN PLEASE FEEL FREE TO VISIT MY SON WEBSITE AT www.bobbo.memory-of.com Close

chain of comfort  / Selma Flynn
on aug 1 at 1000 pm please lite a candle for heather for chain of comfort thank you selma www.bobbo.memory-of.com Close

An Arrest is finally made  / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
Someone finally has spoken the words that I've been longing to hear for so long. It was reported in the newspaper that Brian killed Heather and he was arrested for it. I know that we all believed he took Heather's life. He showed absolutely no remorse and her never once appolgized to Heather's parents. I just wish I could have been a fly on the wall when they arrested him. We all longed to hear the words you're under arrest and see him hand cuffed. I will pray every night that he get's what's coming to him. I hate him so much and I will never forgive him. Heather deserves justice!!! R.I.P. sweet loving girl. I'll always remember your smile and your laugh. But most of all I'll always remember your hugs!!! Close

the road of life  / Delores Peachey (friend)
AS we walk down the road of life always remember to stop and smell the roses,Life is too short.Always keep your friends and loved ones close to your heart.Memories last forever just remember that when you look up at the sky that loved ones are looking down and smiling.I think this was a wonderful thing to do for Heather to honor her memory,she was a wonderful person.Her life cut short.We will always keep Heather in our hearts.Just always remember Heather would want all of us to be happy in everything we do and achieve our goals in life.She was happy and made all of us happy,we can all recall those cute little things she would say all of the little sayings unique because she had said so many different ones to so many people.Always remember the road the life will lead us to our loved ones that we have lost.The road leads to heaven for all of us so until we can be with those that we lost lets hold on to memories.Heather we love and miss u Close

When Heather Was two  / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
I have a story to tell you about Heather when she was 2 years old. It was a Saturday and Heather's Uncle Jeff, Uncle Rick and I were watching American Bandstand. This group came on called a Flock of Seagulls. I remember Heather coming in the front door and started screaming turn it off. The lead singer looked like he had devil horns coming out of his head. He was pretty scary looking. We turned off the TV and Heather was fine. I remember it like it happened yesterday. I wish I could go back to those times. I just miss her sooo much. Love Aunt Debbie, Uncle Rick and Uncle Jeff Close

Thinking of You  / Maggie Rodriguez (Friend)
i have been thinking about you alot lately ! i was going thru some pictures and i stumbled across pics from when we went to florida. i was thinking about all the fun we had. i came across a phrase4 the other day and as soon as i read it i thought of you. " they say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an eternity to forget them" your always in my heart and never forgotten !! Close

When the hell will there be justice?  / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
i read samantha's tribute. i also saw the car and i couldn't believe how much damage there was. i agree with samantha that justice needs to be done. i think it's time for the state troopers to do their jobs right!!!! or should i say boy scouts!!!! if they let that no good so and so get away with this. i'll never believe in the justice system again!!!. heather didn't deserve this and now bg needs to pay for his crime. i recently had surgery on may 18th. when i came out of surgery i asked the nurses who was wearing perfume and they said it wasn't them. it was j-lo heather's scent. it was all around me and on my right hand. i know heather was with me during my surgery. and i laid in the hopsital and cried my eyes out. i miss her smiles and hugs!!!. kyle hugs me alot and i just love it. Close

IN MEMORY OF HEATHER I LOVE YOU / SHANNA SUTER (FRIEND FOREVER)

A YEAR AGO TODAY,
HER LIFE WAS TAKEN AWAY

I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY,
WHY SHE HAD TO DIE

WE ALL MISS HER VERY MUCH,
AND HER VERY SPECIAL TOUCH

SHE REACHED TO OUR HEARTS DEEP INSIDE,
AND LEFT US WITH MEMORIES NOT TO HIDE

OUR LIVES STILL CONTINUE ON,
EVEN KNOWING THAT SHE'S GONE

IN OUR MEMORIES WE WILL NEVER FORGET,
BLESSED TO HAVE MET I HAVE NO REGRET

I KNOW SOMEDAY I WILL SEE HEATHER AGAIN,
WHEN MY LIFE DECIDES TO END.

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IN MEMORY OF HEATHER I LOVE YOU / SHANNA SUTER (FRIEND FOREVER)

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I miss U sooo much heather......i seen the car yesterday.. :( / Samantha Dowlin (Friend)
Hey hun, another day still missin you... i drove to the police station and "trespassed" into the parking lot to see the car... and omg.... WHY??? Heather YOU did NOT deserve this... u did NOT deserve to be the one to leave us... When i seen the car i couldnt believe how messed up it was... right theres enough evidence just lookin at the dang thing to tell he was speeding cuz there is NO WAY possible, that I can think of, other then he was speeding to cause THAT much damage, and take a precious life.  NO WAY AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!! damn i wish i was a cop or a judge or something to do with the law cuz he would be sittin or would have been sittin in the electric chair by now. But then again... what about Kyle.. its bad enough he lost his mommy, friend, someone he looked up too,..... then hes gonna lose his father too bc of all this....... bc of that bad decision or ALL those bad desicionS his father made that night/day.... well heather hopefully the right decision will be made and soon for ur son and parents.... the deserve some closure.... and watching the one responsible walk is definately NOT closure... at all!!!!!!!!
    well hun i'll write more later... i just wanted to say hi ..and let ya know im thinkin about u daily... ALLL The time.......... i'll write later love ya always...
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just wanted to let ya know we alllll still care.... missin ya / Samantha Dowlin (Friend)
Hey baby gurl.. I just wanted to drop ya a line and let ya know im still thinkin about ya.. even though i havent been on top of things with the website..there is just sooo much i want to do with it, so many things i want to add, but my lil one keeps me busy. I started a new project that keeps me occupied but im gonna keep that one a secret until its finished. I just hope yas like it (when Im finished that is).. Heather i still havent found any right words to say.... i have been wanting to write a  "book" in this section about all our good times and even our down falls we had through out our friendship....but when i get started  i cant finish bc something comes up and i get side tracked and then it doesnt make sense to me so i would have to start all over... so what i have been doin well i just started it, is right b4 i go to bed i write in a lil book, things id like to say and like for u to know how i feel... as u already know we werent really on speaking terms when u passed so to me it just feels like ur still down at the apartment getting treated like crap from sargent D-head (x-cuse my language) and i feel like i can call down there and get ahold of ya. But then i realize that i did attend a funeral and viewing for you so i gotta slap myself upside the head and wake up.....Im glad that ur in a better place though.. i mean that doesnt sound right... hmm.. im happy that ur not hurting anymore.. i just wish your parents, family, son, and friends, didnt have to hurt... I know you are looking out for us all though... I seen my mom wrote about how she passes where the accident happened every day and i know its hard on her too... she loved ya too..even though she got mad at us both when you would come pick me up to go to the clubs and we'd say i would be home by a certain time and then i would never make it home till way past that time... she is a forgiving person so she didnt stay mad.. cuz shoot the following weekend we'd do it all over again... lol..... damn gurl i miss you so much... u meant(mean)  soooo much to me heather..and i didnt know how to show you how much i appreciated you and everything youve done for me but I'm tryin to by the things im doin now... I mean... it would be great if that everything that ive done or that anyone has done was one step closer to bringin u back but unfortanetly we cant... God that would be great.. I would work my ass off to get ya back here for your son and parents sake... I havent talked to your mom lately so im hoping everything is ok.. I know Lil man doesnt really like when shes on the phone so i dont like to call her all the time.. i feel like im a pain.. Kyle just wants all Nannys attention and thats totally understandable.. i wish i could help her more often.. She deserves a break every now and then.. but she has to do all this bs runnin around for .. whats his face... and thats not fair.. I hope that MADD can help her out too... I looked up some info for her and gave it to her and hopefully they are doin what they say they do..Helping those families that has lost a loved one in an alcohol related accident..... I guess we just gotta stay patient... and wait till the one or ones responsible for ur death is LOCKED up and payin for it....... Well i would imagine that they are in their own little "cell" knowing they are the ones responsible.. but then again i dont think he thinks hes in the wrong even though just the fact that he got into that drivers seat DRUNK.. is or should be enough right there to lock him up.. but then theres the THREE cars he passed in the center (TURNING) lane, speeding, driving with no license, alcohol in the car.. ..hmm shall i go on......... i mean dang what is taking so long... I got pulled over on your birthday .. me and kristin and my bro and some other friends went out to celebrate your 25th bday and i got pulled over and got popped with a dui.. which i deserved bc i was in the wrong and im willing to admit that but damn i didnt kill anyone.. i wasnt involved in any accidents, i wasnt speeding, i HAD a license, i just made one bad decision and im already in the system for what i did.. its been almost a year and a half and still.. NOTHING!!!! I already had to pay for a lawyer and go to all these classes and do community service.. and i have to go to court and ill be on probation for i think 6 months.. but they werent hesitant to charge me right away i wonder y things are draggin in your case.. i know that with him sittin behind bars isnt gonna bring u back but damn at least there would be justice for ya.. if he hadnt gotten in that drivers seat.. or if he didnt drink all that day b4 u even got home from work... youd still be here.. I know that he drank all that day from his lil girlfriend... the one u would always call me crying because he would take YOUR car and go meet her.. and sneak around.. and put u through hell.. its ok though.. their days will come TRUST ME!!!....some how some way.. itll all come to an end for em... its ashame though right now that the one is able to walk free and breath the air or shall i say pollute the air and youre not able to walk or enjoy life.........SUX!!!!!!!! .. alright well im gonna end this for now.. but i will write more n  get back to workin on the website for everyone to view... i dont have anymore pictures to add right now but when i get more i'll add em......... so we can all enjoy them........ alright hun i need to go make some lunch....love ya so much and miss ya......... keep lookin out.. 

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Reminders / Helen Dowlin (Sam's mom)
Hi Heather

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you.  I think about you everyday.  You know I drive bus and I go past where you took your last breath, everyday about 4 times.  It's hard to go past and not think about that night.  There is so much pain there.  There is so many questions about that night that aren't being answered.  You are with God and he has all the answers.  Yeah we have to  be patient and forgiving and wait, but it's hard.  How do you forgive someone who took your daughter, best friend and your mommy.  But I know your mom and dad would have so much peace when this is all over with. And know that their precious daughter didn't have to die in vain, that the one responsible for your death is punished.   Heather when you were in a room you brought  sunshine and happiness, with your smile and that laugh.  It was always nice to have you around.  We miss you.  Someday justice will be served.  For your mom and dad's sake I pray it happens soon. And to everyone you left behind who cares and loves you.    We love you Heather.  Close

Justice for Heather / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
Heather, It's been a year and nothing has been done about your accident! I will not stand by and let the person or persons responsible for your death go unpunished!!!!! How is it that the guilty get to live and breath and you get death? I wish I could give you back your life so that Kyle would have his mommy back!!!! The other day it was raining and I thought about you. I know you hated the rain. Nanny, Pappy and I really really miss you!!! I know I'll see you again someday, but until then my heart is broken. I just want the person or persons responsible for you being in the ground took from us!!!! Still missing your hugs!!! Love, Aunt Debbie, Nanny & Pappy Decker Close

~"IF I KNEW"~ ((Poem I found.. )) / Samantha Dowlin (Friend)

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

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"YOU MEANT SO MUCH" (TO US ALL) / Samantha Dowlin (Friend)
You Meant So Much

You meant so much to all of us
You were special and that's no lie
You brightened up the darkest day
And the cloudiest sky

Your smile alone warmed hearts
Your laugh was like music to hear
I would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near

Not a second passes
When you're not on our minds
Your love we will never forget
The hurt will ease in time

Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
And no longer in any pain. Close