A letter from Heather sent from HEAVEN>>> / Samantha Dowlin (Friend)
To my dearest family, 
     Some things I'd like to say.  But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from Heaven.  Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.  Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.  That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you. He said, "It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone."  As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on.  There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man." God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do, and foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.  And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.  When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.  Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.  But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain. Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.  I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.  If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand. But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is through.  I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.  There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb; But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.  That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.  If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain; Then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain." And now I am contented....that my life was worthwhile.  Knowing as I passed along my way I made somebody smile.  So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low; Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go. When you're walking down the street and you've got Me on your mind; I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.  And when it's time for you to go....from that body to be free. Remember you're not going.....you're coming here to Me.
     Love, 
    Heather Lynn Wise
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Shooting Star / Mom (Mom)
Kyle & I were watching TV & they were talking about a shooting star. He said nanny I want a shooting star. I asked him what he would do with it. He said get my mommy back! Out of the mouths of babes!!! Close

Shoe shopping for Kyle at park city / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
Heather, I still remember our conversation when we shoe shopping for Kyle. It was your mom, Nanny, Me and you. I remember you trying on a pair of sneakers at the Action Footware store. It was going out of buisness and you tried on a pair of sneakers. You told Nan and I that you really didn't need sneakers for the summer, you already had a pair. I still remember that day like yesterday. When we were ready to leave park city and before you got into your car. Your mom told you to be careful. Heather you said I will and that you were going to stop for chicken corn soup, because it's your favorite. I wanted to share this memory with everyone. Because I never want to forget ever ! Still missing your hugs. Love you forever and ever!!!! Debbie Decker Close

Thinking about you / Nancy Decker (Nanny)
Heather, It has been a year now. I miss you even more. You should not have lived with that Dough-Dough! !!! The only goo thing from all this is your son Kyle. We never did go to shop for curtains. But we did go to Teck's every day. When you were little you told your mom we walked to Texas!!! Love, Nanny Decker Close

Linda and Jim / Valerie Saez (Sister)
I just wanted to write a note to you guys and let you know how much I love you, and miss you guys!  I know this has been the hardest year of your life, and I know how very close you were with heather....We were all so lucky to have her in our life.  She really was a selfless, caring, and giving person.  The most giving person I ever knew.  I loved her like a sister, and in my heart, she will always be my sister.  You all are in my prayers everynight....and Kyle as well.  At least you have him to remind you of your little girl.  I just miss her so much, and cant wait to see her again!  I love you .... and wanted to send my condolences.

Love You~
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My thoughts to Heather's Mom and Dad / Lisa Hensel (friend)
    A year has past since a very special person has left this earth.  In that time I have had the opportunity to reflect on the things I miss the most about Heather.
     I have know Heather for a very long time, since she worked for me as a teenager at Burger King.  I can honestly say that I was a better person for knowing her.  Not that often do you get to say you develope a realtionship with an employee that goes beyond the work place.  However I can say that I truly hope I did.  Your daughter was a bright spot in my day.  I rarely meet teenagers with the maturity and knowledge of responsibility that your daughter had.  She was one of the most level headed people I knew.  When our paths crossed again at a different job I got the chance to know that person all over again and am extemely happy I got that chance.  I found that she, like everything else in the world had grown.  She was smarter, wiser, and even more caring.
     Everyone has their faults in life and she did everything possible to make up for them.  I can say that because of your daughter I view things differently and that my life is better.  Her daily smile, her listening ear, her constant effort to make her life better, they are all things that taught me life means more.
      I know that there are no great words or feelings to make up for the loss of a loved one, especially those that leave large gaps in our lives.  However you should remember, like I do, all those little things in life that she let you feel and made you a part of.  She made my life better as I know she made yours.  That is all we can ever ask of one another....and she did it very well.  I know that will forever miss the part of my life that she touched, however I also know that I will always have the memory of what she touched in me.  For this I will always miss her and always remember her.
      I hope that in time your wounds heal and you find stength in knowing that her life, however brief, had meaning.  There is no exact way to epress my feelings and no really correct words to explain them..... To put it in a way that is simple and understandable would be like this:  Your daughter was and will always be to me an EXCELLENT person, she cared and loved in the easiest of ways, she was responsible and concerned, she held every trait that a truly good person wishes to have.  She is and will be forever missed by me....she was and will always be a friend.  I love her and missed deeply. 

Love always.
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Heather / Betty Mendez (friend)
Hi Heather    I come to this site every night and just look at your pictures and read all the wonderful notes sent to you every day.   You have so many people missing you and loving you.  I know you a watching them and taking care of every one you can. I'm sure in heaven you are taking care of every one who may need your help.  You were the most generous young girl I ever knew.  You have the laughter that is never to be forgotten.  I know yolu have always been there for Stacey and Val and they have always been there for you. 

Now You need to take care of your Mom and Dad and watch over them as they raise your son.  You have been doing a wonderful job watching over your parents since they have been doing a great job with Kyle and every thing they need to handle.  Betyou never thought your Mom was so strong?  

I know your at peace and content and will always shine down on your son and protect hi,.  Just remember you are in many many prays every night and you  were loved by many people. Close

Heather / Betty Mendez (Friend)
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Jim and Linda / Betty Mendez (friend)
What do I say????   I can't even begin to know what you feel.  Every day since Linda told me about this site I read everything that is put in here.  I never can decide what to say.  To loose a child is something I can't even begin to understand.  All I know is I'm here for you both when ever you need someone and our entire family is here for both of you also. 

Heather was a good daughter and a good person.  She would do anything in the world for her family and friends.  She never forgot a birthday or any special day for someone she loved and she has been like this since she was old enough to talk.  She took life by the handfuls and enjoyed every part of it even though sometimes that would cause her trouble.  She was the closes friend my daughter ever had and I bellieve will ever have.  What a wonderful gift we had Linda to have our girls best friends as well as us being best friends. 

My thoughts and prays go to you and your family now and every season.
My prays go to Kyle.  I know you will take the best care of him and always be there for him.  Life is a gift and we need to enjoy every minute of it never forget that.

My deepest love to Linda, Jim and Kyle. Close

Jim and Linda / Betty Mendez (friend)
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WHY?!?!?!?!?!? / Samantha Dowlin (friend)
Heather... Its almost a  year that u were taken from us all. We werent talkin this time last year bc of the LIES that were told to you. I NEVER EVER did anything with that a$$ nor would I EVER.... cant stand him never could and NEVER WILL try to..... I remember when u were livin alone, how happy you were without the extra stress/ drama and that was all takin away when the "warden" came back in the picture.. I miss those days you would sneak a call in when he ran to the "store" or whereever he decided to go.. and we would quickly catch up on the kids and our lives till he pulled in then u had to hurry and get off the phone.... I also remember when u were there for me all those times.. baby shower, delivery, christmas, birthday, weekends (when we went out ;))...etc.. I loved those days/ nights i would babysit Kyle for you.. he is such an adorable kid.. He was a handful at times but now that my daughter is goin through the terrible twos/ threes... I know exactly how u felt..I wish we could have that ALL back... Its ashame u had to sneak around to talk to your friends..... but u wouldnt ever lose the connection with 'em... 

My house is a circus now with Savannah and Erin runnin around.. so my focus on here is shot.. I cant seem to stay on one subject... so forgive me.. I know you understand everything that im sayin and thinkin.... 

I still cant believe ur gone, Heather, No one knows or "cant remember" that tragic night... and your family is left with ALOT of unanswered ?'s... They didnt deserve to lose you now they gotta go through the bull shit waiting period till they get some justice served....THEY DONT DESERVE THIS.. NO one does... I pray that they get all the answers as soon as possible.. I would drive passed the accident site and NOT KNOW what the hell happened(excuse the language but..).. its a straight shoot how could ANYone not see that there was brake lights and a stopped vehicle... I dont know what to say I just really wish I could rewind a whole year and bring you back for starters but not lose that communication with you then maybe we woulda been at the brass eagle and u woulda NEVER went to the station. And we woulda been in YOUR car with airbags... TOo much frustration... Im sorry if I am blowin this way outta proportion.

Alright Im gonna end this for now cuz i cant stay focused..But thanx again for everything u did for me and my family.. U were/ARE the greatest person...U listened to ALL my problems..which tended to amount to alot lol... and i would always listen to you ... I wish there was more i coulda done for you ..............Well I am understanding more and more that u are in a better place .....U  were and are there for us all and we are alll grateful...Thanx for everything Heather...I love you and miss you soo much...

As u already know ;) I am having another baby I was gonna name it Nevaeh Lynn.... (thats heaven spelled backwards n ur middle name) but its a boy so i dont know... I really wanted to name it after u .. but Heather and Lynn are both girly names lol so i dont know how im gonna do it... I know ull be there for this delivery too... so i'll be lookin for ya ;) love ya always
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Heather's mom and dad / Helen Dowlin (friend)
I just want to send my condolences to you.  Tell you how sorry I am.  I couldn't imagine how you two must feel.   Know that one day you will all be together again.  Heather will always be in your hearts.  For now keep the memories you have of her.  Heather was always smiling and laughing when I seen her.  You must have been very proud of her.  She was a beautiful person, inside and out. She was a good mother and friend.   We were blessed to have had a chance to know her.  Close

Missing you Heather / Helen Dowlin (friend)
Hi Heather.  It's been almost a year.  You are missed very much.  You were always smiling and laughing when you were here.  I could see in your eyes the love you had for Kyle.  Kyle was your everything and your angel.   Now you are his angel watching over him.  I still don't understand why God took you so young, but I am just thinking he must have had a bigger plan for you .  I have you on video when we gave Samantha  her baby shower.  Some how maybe we can figure out how to put it on this site for others to see you and hear  you laughing.  You were always there for Samantha and she is doing everything she can to make sure no one forgets you.  We all miss you so much. Close

I was going throuhg some things and saw your picture..... / Valerie Saez (friend/sister)

Hey mama.....
I was doing some spring cleaning and I found some pictures of us when I was staying in lancaster, before we left for florida....it got me started missing you so much.  We were not able to be as close the past five years, because of me being in florida, but you know I never stopped loving you.  We kept in touch, and you helped us out by giving the kids all kinds of toys that christmas....how could I ever begin to say thank you for everything you ever did for me.?  I get so sad when I think about the fact that all of this had to happen right before we moved back up....I wish so bad that you were here so you could see the kids growing, and we could get to spend some more time together.....I still find myself going to call you when something crazy happens, and I want to share it with you.....I really miss you.  It hurts to think about the pain that Kyle is going through as well....we all know that little boy was your world.  You would do anything for him.  Of all the people out there...you and your family certainly were the last people that this deserved to happen to.  I keep thinking back to the good old days, when we were young, and had no worries.....ohh how I wish we could go back!  You have been there for me through some of the hardest times of my life, helping me through it, and offering me whatever you could give to help me.  There are not many out there like you, thats for sure!
We have your picture in our living room, and I look at it everyday and ask WHY? 

I'm so glad we got to have that last christmas together.  We couldnt make it over all day, but we got there...it was not until almost midnight, but we sat up and put Kyles toys together, and caught up.....I thank GOD for giving me that little bit of time with you before all this happened. 

Always remember you are my sister, and I will never forget you or all the crazy and fun times we shared....you were always good for making people smile, I miss your laugh!  Love you soooooo much, and I cant wait to see you again, we all cant wait to see you again.

You're always in my prayers.......
Love you~
Valerie

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You know what I mean!! / Stacey Mendez (Best Friend)

Heath ~

Hey girl, I heard about this website and wanted to write you a little something.  We always talk and you visit me all the time and I am so grateful for that.  I miss you so much.  So much has happened since you have been gone.  I guess I don't know what to do with myself since you are gone.  I have been through a lot and I really could have used your kick in the butt at times, but you already know I am getting through this and you are helping in your own special way.  You are talked about on a daily basis in my household.  You are my best friend, my soul sister!!  Jacoby says to me that your in the sky and watching over us.  I miss your Kyle so much.  I hope he is doing great.  From what I hear he is.  Jocelyn is missing him also. 

I think about all the memories we have in your short time with being with us, and I get nothing but big smiles on my face when thinking of the crazy things we used to do from the time we were 6 months old till the end.  I tell ya, we were some wild girls!  Well, everyone knows that!  By the way, I still have that pitcure with you in that shirt!!!!    I listen to the tape we have when we were going over that bump at the Buck all the time.  That is hilarious!  We were getting Taco Bell at 2:30 in the morning.  That sounds like us.

I just also want to let you know that it wasn't me doing those stupid things that I have done.  We have talked about this and you have come down and spoke to me in my dreams and I know you forgave me for everything but sometimes I think about it and it hurts me so bad.  I know that I am suppose to forgive myself and only worry about that for now, but it is really hard.  I didn't know how to act once my only friend left me.  I felt like I had to get closer to death myself.  You made me realize that I am needed here for the kids and that I am wanted and loved.  I thank you so much for that.  When I needed you back when I had Jocelyn and going through it you were there for me and you are there for me know.  That's what so great about you.  I know that we will be together someday soon and be laughing again!

Okay, I better get going.  I just wanted to let you know how much I love you and miss you.  I know you are still there for me and forgive me for the crazy things that went on this past year.  I feel lost without your presence, but you know, you are always here for me and to listen to me.  I love you with all my heart.  You are the sky that watches over me, the sun that shines down on me, the moon that glows on me in the night and the stars that sparkle.  You are always missed in my household and you will never be forgotten!  (You know what I mean!!)  Remember that?!

Love you and miss you so much~ Your Soul Sister ~ Stac

P.S.  Jacoby, Jocelyn and Jake miss you and love you dearly.  By the way, Jake said thanks for helping him also.  We love you girl!!

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This is for Kyle / Helen Dowlin (Friend (Samantha's mom))

Kyle right now you may not really understand what is going on.  You just want to know where your mommy is.  Well Kyle just know that your mommy didn't leave you.  She is always watching over you and a prayer away.  You can talk to her anytime you want.  She will hear you.  She just can't answer right now.  One day when you are much older she will hold you in her arms.  I just want you to know that your mommy loves you very much and she always will.  She was a very kind  and loving person.  She would do anything for you or anyone else that would ask.  I knew her for a few years and I can tell she was very special.  She will always be in my heart and prayers.  Know your mommy is an angel now watching over you.  You are the one she loved the most.  You were her world Kyle.

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Missing u from your little guy!!!! / Mom &. Kyle (Mom)
Last night Kyle & I were watching TV & he said nanny you have to by that drink that gives you wings(Red Bull commerical), I could drink it and go fly up to Heaven and bring Mommie back. You and Pop Pop can come along. We can hide Mommie at the house from God so he can't find her and take her .
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Lyrics to the song "HOMESICK" ... / Samantha Dowlin (Friend)

Heathers Aunt Debbie emailed me with this song and i havent been able to find the song to download to the website so i am putting the lyrics in awhile till i get the song....I also think the song reminds us ALL of Heather right away.. Everything reminds me of her... i have pictures hanging in my room and sometimes its hard for me to go to sleep at night bc i still dont understand the "system"... how someone can do what they did and walk..and enjoy life.. I DUNNO.. guess we all just need to be PATIENT and hope and pray that something will happen SOON!!  Thanx Aunt Debbie for the song..

"Homesick"
By Mercy Me

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

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I hope you dance / Debbie Decker (Aunt)
Heather, Thank you for Crocodile Rock this morning at 2:35 AM. I couldn't sleep and at that time I heard this song on the radio. I thought about another story I'd like to share with your friends. You were six or seven, and you were in a dance receital. You were dressed in a crocodile suit. Your routine was to the song Crocodile Rock. So everytime I hear that song I think of you. I hope you are dancing in heaven and at peace. Memories are all I have left of you. So if you're near me give me one of your hugs. I really miss your hugs. Love and Peace, Aunt Debbie Close

With much love / Jeff Decker (uncle)

Heather,  me  brenda nicholas and grace miss you so very much
I can;t believe your gone and I know you are looking down on us
we all love you and miss so very much     love jeff, brenda, nicholas,grace

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